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dustedoffanoldie) wrote2010-09-06 06:21 am
dustedoffanoldie) wrote2010-09-06 06:21 am
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Noooo
So, I decided to clean off people who no longer used, or have deleted me from LJ - and I ended up deleting about 95% of my list by accident :( That was NOT intentional, and hopefully you have all received my friend request again. Stupid fucking live journal. If for some reason we're still not friends, please poke me.
I've not updated for absolutely freaking ages, but Urgh. My life is in such limbo at the moment and I feel so bloody frustrated. I've never felt so low and depressed and I hate it. I've tried numerous times to sit and write in here, but I make myself even more miserable just reading how mundane and nothingy my life is at the moment. This isn't me. I know once I'm working, I'll feel better, but this stage I’m in right now sucks so much. I'm having the operation on my nose (to remove lose bone fragments.... mmm doesn't that sound delicious) on the 16th September, so hopefully once I'm healed from that I can start to look for work (that is, unless they want to operate on my bladder and put in this pace maker type thing, to try and help me pee...) Thing is, I've been at home and not working for so long, I'm scared. I have little to no self confidence - which has more or less been since my accident at work... and I just don't know what I could do. I'm 27 and feel as though I've done fuck all with my life, and I see no happy ending in sight.
Sorry this is such a Debbie Downer of a post. I just want you all to know I'm still here and still ♥ you all. Please don't forget me when I don't post for a while. Hopefully I'll be back to my usual perky self before we know it.
Don't forget to leave me a message here if we're still not friends on LJ again. I'm keeping this post open for a few days.
LOVE YOU
I've not updated for absolutely freaking ages, but Urgh. My life is in such limbo at the moment and I feel so bloody frustrated. I've never felt so low and depressed and I hate it. I've tried numerous times to sit and write in here, but I make myself even more miserable just reading how mundane and nothingy my life is at the moment. This isn't me. I know once I'm working, I'll feel better, but this stage I’m in right now sucks so much. I'm having the operation on my nose (to remove lose bone fragments.... mmm doesn't that sound delicious) on the 16th September, so hopefully once I'm healed from that I can start to look for work (that is, unless they want to operate on my bladder and put in this pace maker type thing, to try and help me pee...) Thing is, I've been at home and not working for so long, I'm scared. I have little to no self confidence - which has more or less been since my accident at work... and I just don't know what I could do. I'm 27 and feel as though I've done fuck all with my life, and I see no happy ending in sight.
Sorry this is such a Debbie Downer of a post. I just want you all to know I'm still here and still ♥ you all. Please don't forget me when I don't post for a while. Hopefully I'll be back to my usual perky self before we know it.
Don't forget to leave me a message here if we're still not friends on LJ again. I'm keeping this post open for a few days.
LOVE YOU
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I hope your surgery goes well. What are the immediate effects after the operation? It seems like it would hurt to breathe. :(
27 is not old, not by a long-shot. You've got plenty of time and you'll find something that makes you happy. It's like I'm always telling my bff - career doesn't have to be your life passion.
Love <3
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It shouldn't hurt to breathe at all after the operation, I more or less can't breathe through my nose right now anyway, so to be able to actually do that will be so exciting for me LMAO. It'll be sore, this is my third operation on my nose, so I know what to expect, but this time I'm seeing a GOOD doctor. One who wont leave bone fragments in my nose, so they can float around *puke*
I know 27 isn't old, I just feel old. Especially when I have to tick those stupid 25-35 year old boxes. Way to depress a woman lol. Oh and I totally agree with you, your job doesnt have to be your life. As long as I'm happy and making money to survive that is all I want. I've never really been one to have dreams - or the dreams I have had are totally stupid and beyond my capabilities. So yeah, as long as I can find something that doesn't make me wanna cry when I wake up each morning, I'll be fine. xxxx